JUST FRIENDS ”
By: Guevarra Marinel
“Krish!”
I heard him calling my name, but I remained silent as if hindi ko sya narinig. Halos lakad takbo na ang ginagawa ko just to escape from this situation.
I can’t face him right now, not now na wasak na wasak ako.
“Please! Leave me alone!”
Sigaw ko, habang patuloy lang ang lakad, I can’t face him, hindi ko kaya.
He grab my arms and hold me tightly. Wala na akong pake if mag eskandalo kami
rito. What more important is makalayo ako sa kanya.
“Why did you do that?” he asked na nagpakabog lalo sa dibdib ko.
Hindi ako makatingin ng deretso sa kanya. Bakit nga ba?
Why did I slap that bitch. Kahit ako ay di ko rin alam. But one thing for sure ginawa ko yon para sa lalaking ito.
“Tell me! Why-did-you-hurt-my-girl!”
May diin ang bawat salitang yun. At alam kong galit na galit sya. Jones and I are friends since birth.
I was there for him through bad and good times, and I love him.
My feelings for him remains hidden for the long time, at ayoko kong malaman nya yun kase anytime, kayang kaya nya akong alisin sa buhay nya.
“Answer me!”
Napatalon ako sa gulat dahil sa sigaw nya, he frustratedly brush his hair using his hands, di ko na alam ang gagawin ko.
He was about to shout again ng bigla akong naglakas loob na sumagot.
“Shes cheating! Ok! Niloloko ka nya! Bakit ba ang tanga tanga mo!”
He was stunned for a moment, never ko pa syang sinigawan. I know nabigla sya ng todo.
“Damn you Jones! Ang manhid mo! Ni hindi mo manlang alam na niloloko ka lang nya! Ang manhid manhid mo, alam mo ba yun huh!” I shouted at him.
“Wala ka nang pake dun, I choose to stay with her tho alam kong may mali.” He said coldly and I smiled bitterly.
“I hate you.”
I whispered na alam kong narinig nya. I saw pain in his eyes, he deserves it, masyado na syang manhid.
“She’s just using you Jones bakit ba nagpapakatanga ka sa kanya?” A tear fall from my eyes.
“Ang manhid mo kase di mo manlang alam yung mga ginagawa nya behind your back”
wala syang imik habang tuloy lang ako sa paghikbi.
“But you know what’s worse?”
I look straight at his eyes.
“Sobrang Manhid mo dahil di mo manlang naramdaman yung pagmamahal ko sayo.”
I burst out in tears, nanlaki ang mata nya sa sinabi ko.
His jaw dropped, he can’t form a words.
He kept on staring at me with full of worries.
“Yes Jones, I like you...

eversince we’re on highschool. I like you to the point na nagpakamartir ako.”
Gumaan ang pakiramdam ko after saying those words, atlast I freed my burdens.
“Krish. . .” he mumbled.
He stared at me, he dont know what to say. He watch me intently na para bang hinuhuli nya kung nagbibiro ba ako or what.
“Kase naman Jones eh, I tried my best para mapansin mo, but you’re really numb.”
I keep sobbing, I can’t help it, sobrang lungkot na ang nararamdaman ko.
“Bakit yung Kapatid ko pa?”
He was shocked at the moment, I’m confessing my feelings for him at talagang kagulat gulat yun.
He was confused— I know kabigla bigla ang rebelasyon na ito.
“Bakit sya? Niloloko ka lang nya”
I gritted my teeth nang maalala ko ang kapatid ko.
“Why her?”
“bakit di na lang ako?”
“Ayaw mo ba sa’kin?”
“Bakit hindi na lang kase ako?”
“Ako na lang kase Jones, ako na lang.”
I whispered habang humahakbang palayo sa kanya. Di ko alam kung saan ko napulot ang lakas ng loob ko, but it feels good to burst all my pains.
Nakaharap ako sa kanya at patuloy ang urong ko.
“Ako na lang kase.”
I sobbed and turn my back at him. I run as fast as I can, He was left dumbfounded.
I heard him call me but I didn’t dare to look back. Kase once na gawin ko yun, ang lumingon sa kanya, I can’t take it, baka magpaka martyr na rin ako.
“Ako na lang kase, ako na lang” I whispered.
Those words fade as wind blows. I tried to make my way amidst the crowd, staring blankly,feeling numb and empty.
At these moment alam kong mawawala sakin si Jones, mawawalan ako ng minamahal and at the same time nang bestfriend.
—
“I DO”
Umalingawngaw ang ang palakpakan at kantyawan ng mga tao sa loob ng simbahan.
I stared at them all— Watch as they kissed each other sa harap ng altar.
It’s been a years, now I’m here at the church— watching them as they exchange their vows. Ilang taon akong umiwas sa kanilang dalawa and last week, I heard na ikakasal na sila. My Sister did cheat and she apologize to Jones. Jones forgave her and they start all over again. Ako naman, I start loving myself. Umiwas ako to forget my feelings for Jones.
I guess mistakes can lead you into the right decisions, or person perhaps. Mistakes is the key to find your own happiness— and love.
Jones and I are friends and maybe the both of us are meant to be ‘just friends’.
—End
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