MALAY MO TAYO”
words by: Clive Wrights
February 15, 2012.
That year na nakilala ko sya. I was on my way back when I bumped into her. She was just a simple girl, earphones and book in hand. Although I can’t understand, she looked so sad. Nag sorry kami sa isa’t isa then we both on our ways respectively.
June 17, 2012.
We met again unexpectedly, I broke up with my recent girlfriend. I was fucked up with my studies and lovelife. I drank away my sorrows, to the point the I didn’t believed in myself and love anymore. But she was there, she talked to me.
“Hey, are you okay?”
“Leave me alone.”
“Alam mo kapag galit ka sa mundo, wag mo akong idamay.”
“Ano bang pake mo?”
“Nagkakilala na tayo before diba? I can’t help but notice you.”
“Yes, and?”
“I just want to help. Somebody told me I’m not good with advices pero magaling ako makinig.”
Minutes later, i complied. And that was our first moment of becoming friends.
January 04, 2017
Years later, we became the best of friends. All I know is we both spent our times together, we became inseparable. Every days, every weekends. And suddenly I realize, I woke up with my heart beating loudly for her— a damn crush. It was awkward at first, but then again, I can’t help to assume that she felt the same way.
February 14, 2018
Guess what? I confirmed na hindi lang pala simple crush ang nararamdaman ko. She reciprocated, and I was happy. Pero hindi nya ako pinayagang manligaw...

or magsimula ng relationship between us. Which was weird, though I understood.
“Oy, ga. May sasabihin ako.”
“Ano ga? Bilisan mo, napaka neto. Alam mo namang busy ako.”
“Saglit lang ‘to.”
“Dali!”
“Wait, nasan na yung phone ko?”
“Nasa bulsa mo, ga.”
“Ay, sorry akala ko nalapag mo sa canteen kanina.”
I got confused. Noong isang araw pa kami last na pumunta sa canteen.
August 11, 2019
We were fine, but she started to tell me nonsense things that I don’t understand.
“Oy Ox, kapag nakaalis ako wag ka papagutom ha? Sasapakin kita.”
“Halooo ga. Long time no see! Birthday mo na!” Which is not.
“Kapag nawala ako, wag ka iiyak ha! Promise mo sakin.”
“Promise mo, kahit anong mangyayari ako parin ha? Kahit walang tayo hehehe.”
“Uy ga, bili moko nung teddy bear. Para may alaala ako sayo.”
December 22, 2019
You were confined, with Alzheimer’s Disease. Parang gusto ko sumigaw sa mundo kung bakit. Bakit kung kailan tama na yung tao, saka gusto kunin ng tadhana sakin. You forgot about me, you forgot everything about us.
August 01, 2021
I thought she’s the one, but fate happened. That ‘pipiliin ka sa araw-araw’ turns to ‘sa susunod na habang buhay’. If one day, we cross our paths again. I hope you can remember me as much as someone who once love you more than I loved myself. Maybe forever was meant for the memories not the people.
Malay mo, tayo naman sa susunod na habang buhay.
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[𝘚𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭 𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥. 𝘍𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘦, 𝘐’𝘮 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨]