MY ALMOST
Author: BINIBINING_MARIEL
I fell in love to my bestfriend.
I know it sounds so wrong, but it all happened out of my control and in an unexpected way.
Well, you just can’t just teach your heart to whom it would beat and love for.
I always tried to control my emotions, but he gave me more reasons to fall for him even harder. The way he always checked if I’m done with my assignments, the way he cared for my grades and my future are really something that my heart could no longer take.
As we graduated in College until I became a Nurse and him as a licensed Mechanical Engineer, I still secretly admired and continued loving him from afar.
I want to confess, but I’m afraid of what would be the outcome of my confession. It might lead to a love story or another tragedy for us.
Kung wala rin namang kasiguraduhan ang lahat, mas mabuti pang itatago ko na lang ang lahat.
Ayokong masira ang pagsasama namin dahil lang sa lintek na...

nararamdaman ko!
“Ba’t ‘di ka pa nagkakajowa, pre?”
Bumalik ako sa reyalidad nang marinig ang pagtanong ng kaklase ko kay Migs.
We were having a batch reunion right now and there were empty bottles and cases of beer at the center table.
Before Migs answered the question, I caught him staring at me.
Bigla akong napalunok nang mariin at ramdam ko ang pagbilis ng tibok ng puso ko.
Damn this stupid heart!
“I don’t rush things naman, pre. Kung may darating, edi mamahalin. Kung wala pa, edi tamang hintay na lang muna,” he chuckled.
Damn you! Nandito naman ako! I’ve always been here for you, Migs!
“E, ikaw Claire, ba’t ‘di ka pa nagkakajowa? May hinihintay ka ba?” tanong ng isa kong kaklase.
That question caught me off guard.
“Uhmm…” I stuttered.
Everyone is now staring at me, waiting for me to answer the question.
Napayuko ako. I tried to open my mouth.
Almost said something.
Almost confessed my feelings.
Almost.
“I have no time for that, Rachel. Focus muna ako sa career ko,” I lied