MY RPW FIRST LOVE
I was scrolling on my rp account when I saw one of my closes internet friends post.
‘Still Inlove With The Person I Met Last Month.’
I smiled, before tapping my keyboard at nagcomment sa post nito.
‘Still into someone I met two years ago.’
Bigla itong nagreply sa comment ko and asked me kung sino ang tinutukoy ko. She even mentioned some of our friends para tuksuhin ako. I chuckled bago in-open ang isa pang rp account ko.
This was my first ever role play account, dito sa account na ‘to ko rin siya nakilala, si Lucas. He was a tragic writer, the first time I saw one of his pieces passed through my newsfeed I started to stalk him. Hanggang sa parati na akong nagrereact, nagcocomment and I even share of all his works.
Until, one day he finally noticed me. It started with a simple ‘hi’, hanggang sa naging malapit kaming magkaibigan. Kinalaunan, nahulog kami sa isa’t isa. For me, he’s the best unexpected person whom I’ve met and love in this fake world.
Umabot din kami sa real world and he even introduced me to his parents, para maging legal ang relasyon namin. He was d-mn boyfriend material, at maraming nagsasabi na ang swerte -swerte ko sa kaniya.
At the age of sixteen, I experienced love. I was so contented and happy that time to the point na hindi ko na inisip kung anong pwedeng mangyari kinabukasan. Our relationship went well, until—
I shook my head to erased those thoughts, I should forget him. I should set him free, I should b–be happy right now.
Ngunit kusang gumalaw ang mga kamay ko at pinindot nito ang messages sa luma kong account. Then suddenly, I saw...

our last conversation. Nakita ko ‘yong huling mensahe niya sa’kin, dalawang taon na ang nakalipas.
“Love, pauwi na po ako. Please take care of yourself!”
“I love you, ingat ka! Sabihan mo ako kapag nakauwi ka na. I’ll wait for your chat, mwah.”
I waited for an hour, pero hindi ako nakatanggap ng mensahe mula sa’yo. I waited for another hour pero, hindi ka parin nagparamdam kung nakauwi ka na ba.
“Love, nakauwi ka na ba?”
Lumipas ang araw na ‘yon na hindi ako nakatanggap ng kahit anong reply mula sa’yo. Nervous started to affect my whole system.
Ilang beses ko itong chinat sa loob ng isang araw ngunit hindi parin ako nakatanggap kahit isang ‘like’ lang galing sa kaniya, until a week had passed.
I opened my real account dahilan para mabasa ko ang mensahe na galing sa kaniyang ina, ang mensahe na siyang nagpaiyak sa’kin ng sobra.
“Wala na siya, iha.”
“Wala na si Lucas. Iniwan niya na tayo.”
Naaksidente ito no’ng araw na pauwi siya, he became comatose for a week tapos agad siyang sumuko.
Sa nakalipas na dalawang taon, I’m still hoping that everything was just a dream.
I’ve been waiting for his reply for the
past two years, secretly visiting our convo na alam kong kahit kailan hindi na pwedeng bumalik sa dati.
His sweet chats, virtuals, and cheesy lines. I miss all of it, I miss him so much.
People say, ilang beses tayong magmamahal pero isang beses lang natin mararanasan ang tunay na pag-ibig, and I already found my true love yet I l–lost him.
“You will always be my rpw first love…”
Kasabay ng aking pagbitaw, mukhang kailangan ko ng kalimutan ang salitang ‘ikaw’.
words by; Rarity
work of fiction.
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