I FAILED AS A DAUGHTER”
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“Alam mo mare? ‘Yang babaeng ‘yan valedictorian ‘yan noong highschool!”
“Talaga ba? Ay mare kahit anong talino mo kung makati ka? Makati ka talaga. Nakita mo naman nabuntis agad?!”
“May utak nga hindi naman ginagamit tss!”
Rinig kong chismis ng mga kapitbahay namin sa labas habang patungo ako sa bahay namin. Ngunit pinabayaan ko nalang ang mga ito at pinahiran ko nalang ang mga luhang pumatak galing sa mga mata ko.
I was 18 years old when I got pregnant by my boyfriend Luis. It was his birthday when he invited me to come on his party. I went there and I mingle with some of my friends there. After the party, everyone left the house.
I clearly remember every single detail happened that night. Even if I have drank a lot of whisky that time that caused me to be drunk and not to drive myself alone back home. I pleased Luis to join me home but he refused, instead he just let me stay one night on their house. His both parents is in abroad so he’s been living independently since then.
He guided me into his room and there, he put me on the bed. Seconds had past, I felt his hands roaming beneath me. I stop him from what he’s doing and from what he’s planning to do. I thought I was strong enough to stop him, but I was wrong. Because that night became a nightmare for me. He successfully wrecked my purity and harrased me as a woman.
I wiped my tears out and I heaved a deep sigh after reminicing what happened to me that night. I stop from walking as I reached my destination. I stepped once again and I was about to open the door.
Akma ko na sanang bubukasan ang pinto nang biglang may sumulpot nalang na lalaki...

at kumatok sa pinto at tila ba ay tumagos lang ito sa akin.
My eyes widen because of what I’ve witnessed that caused me to stepped back. My face formed creases as I think of the possible reasons.
Maya- maya pa ay lumabas ang aking ina at nagulat ako nang bigla nalang itong tumakbo patungo sa likuran ko at tumagos lang din ito sa akin.
I turned my head back and there, I found my mother crying while hugging a coffin.
“Kallie, anak! Anak bakit mo iniwan si mama?!” My mom almost yelled as her tears continues to stream down on her cheeks.
I suddenly felt a pinch in my heart as I saw my mother invaded by pain and sorrow.
Nang marinig ko ang pangalan ko ay doon pumasok sa isip ko ang katotohanan.
I’m dead. I’m a ghost already. I remember the day after I gave birth to my child. I drank too much liquor and drove the car faster that it could, that caused me to crashed into a ten wheeler truck. After that, I can’t remember anything.
I walked towards my mom as I was about to hug and comfort her, but I failed to do so. I failed because I cannot even touch the tip of her hair.
“I’m sorry mama. I’m sorry if I can’t reach your dream for me to be a doctor. I’m sorry ma. I’m sorry if I failed as your daughter.” I said as tears starts to escape my eyes and together with it is the guilt impale every inch of me.
“I’m sorry baby Natasha if I failed as your mother. I’m sorry.”
I wiped the tears falling on my cheeks as a shimmering light appeared and together with that I turned into particles as I totally vanished.
I failed as a daughter and I failed as a monther to my child.
—WOLF AMADEO