Charles,” pagtawag ko sa boyfriend kong abala magbasa.
“Yes baby?” Nakangiting sagot nito sabay serado ng libro na binabasa nito.
“Mag ba-bar kasi kami ng mga kaibigan ko mamayang gabi so baka ‘di na kita masasamahan mag-dinner.”
“Bar? Oh sure baby, enjoy kayo mamaya.”
“Yun lang? Hindi ka ba man lang magagalit or what kasi mag ba-bar kami ng mga kaibigan ko? Hindi mo ba man lang ako pipigilan lalo na at maraming mga lalaking manyakis sa bar na pupuntahan namin?”
“No baby, tyaka bakit naman ako magagalit. I want you to bond with your friends and it’s okay with me so you don’t have to worry okay hmm?” Napa-irap ako dahil sa sinabi nito. This is the reason why I want to break up with him, he is so boring. He’s not like others guy who always possess their girls, because he always understand me and I hate it. Especially when we had fight, halos hindi umaabot ng isang oras ang away namin dahil lagi siyang nagpapakumbaba.
I want some thrill with our relationship yung may pagka red flag ba ang lalaki, and sa tuwing inaakit ko siya because I want to make love with him he always reject me and saying “No baby, I respect you.” I was really annoyed that time.
Okay lang naman sa’kin n’on una pero sa bawat araw na lumilipas na bo-boring-an na ako sa relasyon na meron kami.
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I AM here at the bar with my friend’s, I’m here to enjoy and to find a guy who can fill my needs tonight because my-so-good-boyfriend can’t do it.
Nilibot ko ang aking paningin sa loob ng bar and someone caught my attention he’s a good looking guy, moreno, matangkad, for me he’s so perfect because he has a bad aura, he’s so intimidating I think he’s good at bed- a wild one.
“Hey handsome,” inalukan ko ito ng baso na may lamang alak and he gladly accept it.
“Thank’s, I know what you want miss. You want me to f*ck you am I right? Hmm what do you want miss rough or gentle?” Napakagat ako sa labi dahil sa sinabi nito, I see he’s wild I like it huh.
“Rough Daddy.” Napangisi ito dahil sa sinagot ko, I don’t care with my boyfriend anymore ang mahalaga ngayon ay ang matugunan ang pangangailangan ko bilang isang babae.
Mabilis na lumipas ang oras nakita ko na lang ang sarili kong hubo’t-hubad habang umuung*l sa sarap.
AFTER 3 MONTH’S
Sa tatlong buwan na lumipas naging f*ck buddy...

ko si Reuben, halos walang araw na walang nangyayare sa’min nagtataka na rin si Charles kung bakit bihira na lang ako magpakita dito hanggang sa nahuli na lang niya kaming dalawa ni Reuben na nag se-s*x sa kwarto namin mismo dalawa.
“C-Charles akala ko mamaya pa ang uwi mo?” Natataranta kong bulong sabay takip ng kumot sa damit ko.
“A-Ano ang ibig sabihin nito Zephanie?”
“Matanda ka na Charles kaya alam mo na kung ano ang ginagawa namin,” cold na sambit ko dito.
“P-Pero bakit? B-Bakit mo sa ‘kin nagawa ‘to?” Mangiyak-ngiyak nitong bulong.
“Bakit? Because of you! You’re so boring and I hate it, that’s the reason why I chose to cheated with you. You always understand me, You’re not possesive unlike Reuben, you always priority me and I hate it because there’s no thrill with our relationship I want to make love with you but what you did? You f*cking reject me, you know Charles that I still have needs as a girl and you can’t give it to me but Reuben can.”
“Zephanie what’s wrong with that? I just did the right thing as your boyfriend. I don’t want to make love with you because I respect you as a girl I want you to marry me first before we do it, I always understand you because I love you, I’m not possesive because I trust you. You’re always my priority because I don’t want you to feel what my ex felt when I chose to priority my work than her.”
“Zephanie why? I know I did my best to you to be a perfect boyfriend but why you chose to cheated with me? Alam mo Zephanie that I have trauma to fall inlove again but sumugal pa rin ako sa’yo, and I did my best para ‘di ka magaya sa ex ko na iniwan ako dahil sa pagkukulang ko so why? Why you hurt me? Why you cheated?” Ngumiti ito ng pilit sabay punas sa mga luha nito.
“Malaki ka na Zephanie, alam mo na ang tama sa mali. Nasa sa’yo na yun kung tutuka ka ba o hindi. Cheating is a choice so it’s all your choice but you chose to cheated. Let’s break up Zephanie, hindi ako ang nawalan kundi ikaw because I know to myself that I did my best,”
“And there’s no reason to stay with you anymore because if you truly loved me you would’ve never cheated.” Napahawak ako sa puso ko nang makaramdam ng kirot.
Charles… You doesn’t deserve me Charles.