This story isn’t suit on young readers.
“Saan galing yung mga binili mo kanina?” I asked Shania- my girlfriend.
She averted her eyes, something I no longer wondered.
“Hans, kahit ito nalang? Last na talaga ‘to.” She smiled.
“Diba ilang beses ko na sinabi na itigil mo na yan? Pinag uusapan ka na rin kasi ng ibang tao.” I responded.
Instead of arguing with me for being curious, she approached me and hugged me. And that made me soft.
“Girlfriend mo pala yun, Hans? Bakit hindi ka nagsabi? Seriously pumatol ka sa isang gold–”
“Ano sayo?” Before he could continue what he was going to say I cut him off.
“Pero Hans? Diba?”
Tumayo ako saka inayos ang sarili ko.
If my own friend isn’t so respectful of my ownership, don’t expect me to respect them either.
Yes, I know Shania has a bad past, so I can’t blame other people for being judgmental.
Alam ko na nagbenta rin si Shania ng katawan niya pero may sapat siyang reason. She sold her body to the old man just to earn enough medical money for her mother.
Look how’s cruel the world is, kung sino pa yung taong nagsakripisyo sila pa itong na agribyado.
“Akala ko ba tumigil kana sa pagsama sa matanda?” I aksed her for the second time.
Akala ko mababago ko si Shania pero mali ako, hanggang ngayon may chismis pa rin na kumakalat. At pangalan niya ang numero uno na bida.
“Relax babe.”
During those times she even managed to laugh as if he were unaffected by the judgment of others.
Hindi ko alam kung paano nakakaya ni Shani ang ganito mga bagay, in fact Shania doesn’t deserve it and no one deserves to be judged by the world.
“Sumadline ako kanina sa Jollibee, kaya nakauwi ako ng mga ito. Tignan mo binili kita ng bagong sapatos.” She explained.
Reason for a smile to appear on my lips.
O.A lang siguro ako.
“Hans, matagal ko nang iniwan yung trabaho ko noon, I tried to change for you. You are the man who proved that money is not the only way to be happy.” She approached me then leaned on my shoulder.
“Because true love always wins.” She continued.
Shaina is different from other people’s identities.
In the eyes of others, Shania is a gold digger but for me Shania is the woman with a golden heart.
In the almost three years that Shania and I have been together, from unwillingness to Shania’s favorite I have memorized.
I told you, even the gold digger can change when struck by true love.
I thought we were really destined, but I was wrong
Akala ko road to forever na yung love story namin, pero mali ako.
Natatawa nalang ako sa sarili ko dahil nag expect ako.
Tangina.
Takot na takot na baka isang araw mawala nalang ako bigla. . .
Na baka isang araw gigising si Shania na lamay ko na ang nakatambad.
Not until I found out I had a serious illness.
It’s funny to think that I expected a happy ending between the two of us, but I’m just extra in the story of the person who is really destined for Shania.
I’m the beginning but someone else will end our story.
“Ilang buwan nalang ako?” I asked the doctor.
“Three to four months? Kung hindi matatanggal ang bukol sa kidney mo pwede mo iyon ikamatay.”
I became even more weak because of what I heard.
Ibinaling ko ang tingin ko kay Shania na ngayon ay tahimik na nakatingin sa akin.
“Gagaling ka, Hans.” Ngumiti siya. “Pangako yan.”
Shania is the only person who encourages me.
Si shania ang rason kung bakit ang lumalaban...

ako sa sakit na ito.
Pinagpatuloy ko ang treatment ko kahit wala akong sapat na pera. Lumaban ako kahit alam kong wala rin patutunguhan yung mga bagay na pinaglalaban ko.
Sometimes I want to ask the God why I was put in this cruel situation.
I thought my recovery was continuous, but I was wrong.
Not until a scandal video almost killed me. At ang masakit si Shania ang nandoon, diring diri ako dahil hindi isa o dalawa ang kasama niya. But three old men.
Tangina. Paano ko pa masisikmura si Shania kung ganito yung mga nakita ko?
I seemed weakened by what I witnessed.
Bakit sa ganitong paraan ko pa malalaman Shania?!
Napamura ako. Diring-diri ako sa babaeng nilinis ko noon.
During those times my world seemed to turn upside down and my weak body finally fell to the floor.
Before my eyelids finally weighed down, four words entered my mind.
“I wish I died”
It’s been a year, simula noong gumaling ako.
A wide smile faded from me as I saw the woman I had long wished to be mine.
She’s beautiful wearing her fancy white wedding gown. In almost a few years, I will finally marry this woman.
“1. . . 2 . . .3 . . . Say cheese!” Her voiced cracked.
“Miss paki ayos naman, nanginginig pati kamay mo baka pangit ang kuha n’yan.” Katherine complaint.
“Uhm sige ma’am.”
I was almost stunned when I saw the woman taking the picture of the two of us.
Shania?!
I saw her strained smile as she took a neat shot of us. At the same time, the tears welled up that she trying to hold back.
Ang laki na ng pinagbago niya.
“Kamusta kana?” I look directly at her, while she tries to avoid my gaze.
“Sir c-congrats. . ” Utal niyang saad.
“Congrats din kasi habang nasa hospital ako nagpapasarap ka sa ibang lalaki.” I said- sarcastically.
“Hans sa loob ng ilang taon ‘yan pa rin yung tingin mo sa akin?” Pagak itong natawa.
“Bakit hindi ba? Hindi ba, pinagpalit mo ako sa pera kasi ano?! Wala na akong sil–”
I couldn’t continue what I was about to say when she suddenly slapped me.
“Tangina, Hans! May idadagdag ka pa? Wow, Congrats! You hurt me for a second time.” She cut me off.
“Shania gago kaba?! Kasi kung may isang taong deserve masaktan ikaw yun!”
During those times she was even able to laugh even though she was already hurt.
“Hans! Wala kang alam.” She tried to hold back her tears that at any moment was ready to fall on hed cheek. “Hans, nangako ako na hindi na ako babalik sa trabaho ko noon. . .” Napaluhod ito.” Pero kailangan.” Her voiced crack.
“Hans, bumalik ako sa trabaho ko para mapagamot ka. . .”
Halos matauhan ako dahil sa mga sinabi niya.
“Binenta ko ulit yung sarili ko para mapagaling ka pero noong bumalik ako sa hospital nabalitaan kong wala ka na.” Sapo niya ang dibdib niya nang mga oras na iyon. “Hans, binenta ko yung sarili ko para sayo. Pero tangina bakit iniwan mo’ko?” She laughed out loud. “Hinanap kita, pero bakit sa mismong kasal mo pa kita nakita?” She mourn.
I remained silent because of what she said. I seemed to be torn to pieces because of what I heard.
“Remember that day, Hans. I sold my body to three old men, just to save you from death. Pero alam mo kung saan ako nagkamali? ‘Yon ang umasa ako na hindi ka kagaya ng iba, pinasok ko yun kasi kailangan. Pinasok ko yun kasi mahal kita. Pero bakit sa iba ka napunta? Ako yung nagsakripisyo pero bakit ako yung nawalan?”